5

heh

ynnh

Hinenni

(“Here I Am”)

    Moses was shepherding the sheep of Jethro, his father-in-law, the priest of Midian; he guided the sheep far into the wilderness, and he arrived at the Mountain of God, toward Horeb. An angel of God appeared to him in a blaze of fire amid the bush. He saw, and behold! The bush was burning in the fire but the bush was not consumed. Moses thought, “I will turn aside now and look at this great sight—why will the bush be not burned?” God saw that he had turned aside to see; and God called out to him from amid the bush and said, “Moses, Moses!” and he replied, “Here I am!”

Exodus 3:1–4

    The episode of the burning bush signifies the beginning of the Exodus from Egypt simply because it is the event that makes Moses into a prophet, completing his personal transition. Moses went from being an orphaned infant (when his mother put him in a basket in the Nile river to save him from Pharaoh’s evil decree against all male Hebrew babies), to a prince (having been adopted by the Pharaoh’s daughter and raised in the palace), to a shepherd (when he becomes aware of his true identity and runs away from Egypt, joining Jethro in Midian and marrying his daughter), to finally becoming the great leader we know—the liberator—at this moment in the wilderness.

    Just as he had to go through many transitions and changes in his life before he was ready to fulfill his destiny of freeing the Jewish people from slavery, Moses’ prophecy itself has several stages: (1) He goes out into the wilderness; (2) he sees an angel; (3) he notices that the bush is on fire but is not consumed, and (4) only then does the voice of God make itself heard. And when God speaks to Moses, He has to say his name twice, so that Moses will be sure that what he’s hearing is real, and not just a figment of his imagination.

    After all of these stages of increasing awareness, Moses replies, simply, “Hinneni” (“Here I am”), the same word used by Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob in their times of prophecy.

    The direct reply may seem startling—after all, God obviously knows that Moses is “there” or He would not have revealed Himself. But when you think about it, it makes perfect sense: Moses needed to make sure that this was real— he needed to look in the direction of the bush; clarify what was happening; hear his name being called; and affirm that, yes, he was ready to receive the message that would now be sent to him, and would accomplish the task that would soon be set out before him. His whole life has been a slow building-up to this point: where he could acknowledge his own powers and answer God directly, entering into a dialogue with Him that would not only change the course of history, but change the prophet’s own life completely.

    Bible commentators point out that the spot on which the burning bush appeared to Moses was actually the same spot on which the Torah would be given many years later—Mt. Sinai. The fact that Moses’ first awakening to his role as a prophet and his most important task in that role happened on the same spot is not accidental. Just as Moses needed to acknowledge his place in this epic story, so will every single one of his followers need to acknowledge themselves at the giving of the Torah and the Revelation that comes along with it.

    The letter Heh corresponds to the number five, which is also the number of physical senses we’re given at birth: sight, hearing, touch, taste, and smell. But there’s a sixth sense, too: the one we associate with spirituality, which can only be accomplished on our own, through our own journeys to new levels of awareness and emotional depth. This is the sixth sense that Moses acknowledges at the burning bush, and it is that sense that will help him through all the trials and tribulations of leading a people out of slavery and into freedom.

    In order to reach that sixth sense, we learn from the word Hinneni, we must first master the original five senses, getting to know ourselves in our literal, physical states and eventually learning how to get beyond that limited world to the miraculous world that lies above and beyond.

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    The Heh card comes to you at moments of transition and significant personal growth. You may be moving from one phase of your life into another, reaching a certain landmark age or accomplishment, or simply be in the process of maturation and deepening. You’ve gone as far as you can go according to your limited physical understanding of one phase, and you’re on the brink of developing your own sixth sense.

    Take the time to understand where you’ve been and how your whole life has brought you to this point in time and place in the world. Nothing is accidental—after all, the same mountain on which Moses sees the burning bush is the same place where Abraham bound Isaac and where the Torah was given. So don’t take even the slightest details for granted.

    Know that by answering the call, by being present in the moment of transition and being able to say “Hinneni”, you’re accomplishing more than you ever have before.

22
tav

vhbv vht
Tohu U’Vohu
(Vast Nothingness)*

    In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was a vast nothingness, with darkness upon the surface of the deep, and the Divine Presence hovered upon the surface of the waters. And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

Genesis 1:1-3

    *The words Tohu U’Vohu have no clear literal English translation. The phrase has been rendered as “astonishingly empty,” “unformed and void,” “formless and empty,” and “horrendous emptiness,” among others. “Vast nothingness” is our original translation.

    Have you ever wondered what the world was like before there was a world? How did the trees get here, or the mountains, or the sea? In every religion, there are myths and stories to explain the creation of the world, and in science there is the theory of evolution as well, but no one can ever know for sure how we came into existence.

    In this passage, the explanation is as follows: In the beginning of time there was simply nothing at all. There was a void, a black hole, stillness . . . and then God decided to start something new—to create a world and populate it, and to see what we might do with it.

    In Kabala, this nothingness is called Ein Sof(“Without End”) and is considered to be another name for God. According to the Zohar, in the beginning there was only God—and still today there is only God because we’re all made up of tiny fragments of His being, even though we have our own form. Kabalists believe that the state of nothingness, of primordial chaos, is a state that lasts throughout eternity. When we die our bodies become, in a sense, the same nothingness—we disintegrate and become formless and empty, just like the Tohu U’Vohuthat existed before there was a world in which our souls could be clothed in bodies. And so we go through an endless cycle of “nothingness” and “being” from life to life, throughout eternity.

    If there is one thing we learn from the Torah, it is that there are no clear beginnings or endings to any story. Historical accounts reverberate in the present day, and single letters can change the way a whole book is read. Even in the first lines of Genesis we see that the mystery is profound and eternal. Notice that in Verse 2, there is a mention of water, but water was only created on the second day. Or was it? We don’t know. This is to teach us to question assumptions and take nothing for granted.

    Chaos will become order because that is the natural tendency of the world, just as the vast nothingness turned into an enormous universe filled with amazing creations. But in order to make sense of the senseless, to make order out of chaos, we have to put our energy into understanding it all, questioning and rethinking all of our assumption.

    The Tav is the last letter of the aleph-bet and the first letter of the word Torah. Torah is the beginning of knowledge, the first explanation for life and human action, the first family and national saga. The end, therefore, is nothing but a beginning. We know by now that this is true: The end of nothingness is existence, and the end of existence is nothingness—and the completion of every stage in life leads us to the next stage. Global creation and the creation of ourselves are both eternal processes.

    The Tav comes to balance the Aleph. Although it also comes at the beginning of a new stage or the end of an old one, the Tav asks us to consider the uncertainty at hand rather than the solution or action to be taken. Chaos and order are part of the same process, and each are necessary to the other.

    This card encourages you to meditate on the vast nothingness, the emptiness of a world before there is night and day, light and darkness, earth and sea. Remember, we’re all part of this mystical state of mind, so let go of your assumptions and your earthly perspective. Allow yourself to experience the chaos of transition before you turn your energy toward the next stage of your life. The end is only the beginning.

7
zayin

tbsh Mvy ta rvcz
Zachor et Yom HaShabbat
(Remember the Sabbath Day)

    Remember the Sabbath day to sanctify it. Six days shall you work and accomplish all your work, but the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord, your God; you shall not do any work—you, your son, your daughter, your slave, your maidservant, your animal, and your stranger who dwells within your gates—for in six days God made the heavens and the earth, the sea and all that is in them, and He rested on the seventh day. Therefore, God blessed the Sabbath day and sanctified it.

Exodus 20:8–11

    Zayin is the seventh letter of the alphabet, so it makes sense that the commandment to observe the day of rest, the Sabbath (which is the seventh day of the week in Judaism) begins with the word Zachor (“remember”). Why is the commandment to “remember” and “sanctify” rather than to “do” something active? And why does the passage say that not only should the heads of household cease from working, but the whole extended family should, too—down to the animals?

    Abraham Joshua Heschel, one of the great Jewish philosophers of the 20th century, wrote that the Sabbath brings us into the realm of time and away from that of space. Because we spend our whole lives envisioning the world in terms of physical things—objects we want to own, places we want to see, and so on—it’s important to take a day to focus on the invisible objects like “sacred moments” in time. You can’t see, touch, or hear a spiritual experience, but you feel it on a higher level, and you may remember it every day for the rest of your life.

    If you were to climb to the top of a mountain and take in the view, the sensation you’d feel—that awareness of the beauty of nature—is an experience of time, not space. You appreciate the physical view, yes, but your feeling of being at one with that physical world is entirely spiritual. This is what happens on the seventh day of creation: God has created the heavens and the earth, the seas, the animals and plants and humankind; and finally, on the seventh day, He takes a look at everything He’s done, decides to take a break, and makes that break a regular part of the rhythm of life on earth—a holy part.

    The Sabbath is the first thing in all of creation that’s described as “holy.” But how can you sanctify something that isn’t physical? How can a day, which is nothing more than a mental concept we use to mark time and keep track of history, become a holy object? Heschel answered that celebrating the Sabbath is a way of celebrating the “holiness of time,” a way to take control of our lives and focus on ourselves. And to do this properly, we not only have to cease from physical labor, but we need to place ourselves in an environment where everything around us, and everyone in our lives, also makes this break.

    For six days of the week we use our powers to dominate the world around us—working, building, creating new objects, and the like. It’s important, then, to use the seventh day to build up  ourselves, to cease working and just appreciate the beauty of the world around us. It’s as if the entire week is the hike to the top of the mountain, and the Sabbath is the rest we take when we get to the top—where we can finally see everything from a new perspective.

    In every religion there is a Sabbath day, though which day of the week it is varies from tradition to tradition. What unites them all is the concept of a day sanctified and set apart from the rest of the week. The concept of a day of rest is integral to Kabala as well—it’s the very heart of the act of restriction, the structure in our lives that allows us to gain so much by simply doing less.

    The Zayin card is a reminder that you need to stop and allow yourself to experience stillness.

    Weeks go by in endless repeating cycles of actions and experiences—work, eat, sleep; work, eat, sleep. We often think of periods of rest as a waste of time, but the truth is that stillness, meditation, and experiences of spirituality are the most rewarding moments of our life.

    Knowing and appreciating the value of the Sabbath day is one thing—remembering it, Zachor, is something different altogether. Knowing is theoretical; remembering is practical.

    Find a way to make the Sabbath a reality for you, a holy time apart from the rest of your week where you can just be and need not do anything.

6
vav

yvdyv
Vidui
(Confession)

    When a man or woman who commits any of man’s sins, by committing treachery toward God, and that person shall become guilty—they shall confess the sin that they committed; he shall make restitution for his guilt in its principle amount and add unto it a fifth, and give it to the one to whom he is indebted.

Numbers 5:6–7

    The Jewish concept of confession and atonement for sins is based on this verse from the Bible, in which a person is dishonest regarding financial issues (theft, withholding salary, cheating a person on a loan, and so forth). Because these sins are considered not just an affront to the victim but also to God, God requires the sinner to repent, confess, and pay back the money he’s stolen with interest before he can be forgiven.

    The main prayer service of Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement, is called the Vidui, which means “confession,” not “atonement.” It may seem odd that the main service of the heart on this holiest day of the year is filled with confessions that the penitent is meant to say aloud, sometimes together with the rest of congregation. After all, isn’t repentance an inner process, a personal discussion one has with God? The answer is yes and no. Although we repent in our hearts, without confession— that is, the act of saying “I have sinned” and admitting our guilt—we’ll never truly repent, gain atonement, or be able to move on, repairing the damage we have done.

    The letter Vav is most commonly known as the prefix used to denote the word “and,” and is seen hundreds of times thought the Bible as such, connecting words and concepts. Vidui serves a similar purpose: Because your past informs your present and future, being honest with yourself—that is, admitting your faults and expressing remorse for the things you’ve done wrong—will help to connect that past to the future in a more productive way. Expressing your guilt out loud and facing the consequences allows you to move on with your life and will help you truly reach a state of self-knowledge.

    It’s especially interesting to note that in Judaism the Vidui is said not only on Yom Kippur, but on one’s wedding day and on one’s deathbed. At traditional Jewish weddings, the bride and groom immerse in the mikveh (ritual bath), fast for the day leading up to their wedding, and recite Yom Kippur prayers just before they go to their ceremony. The bride also traditionally wears a white dress and the groom a white robe, called a kittl, which will in the future be worn to synagogue on Yom Kippur every year and eventually serve as his clothing for burial. The wedding day is known as a personal Yom Kippur for the couple, a day to reflect on their lives up until this point, realize what was lacking in those lives, and purify themselves both physically and spiritually for the future.

    The connections—the Vavs—between these three moments in life (the Day of Atonement, marriage, and death) are more than symbolic. The Vidui brings us to a place of purification and self-awareness that is crucial in every major life-changing event. Recognizing your shortcomings once a year, working toward a clean slate with which to start your married life, and making peace with God before you die are all essential elements of a truly fulfilled existence.

    The Vav card comes to you in times when it’s important to make a confession of some kind. This need not be a “sin” and isn’t a sign of any shortcomings. It’s just that from time to time we all need to admit certain truths to ourselves, to face up to our actions out loud, and accept responsibility for what we’ve done.

    The past will haunt you until it’s been properly dealt with, so don’t wait to take control of your life. Allow yourself to say what needs to be said. The rest will follow.

8
chet

hlj
Challah

    . . . when you will eat of the bread of the Land, you shall set aside a portion for God. As the first of your kneading you shall set aside a loaf [Challah] as a portion, like the portion of the threshing-floor, so shall you set it aside.

Numbers 15:19–20

    The Bible mentions the concept of “setting aside” many times: Corners of the field are to be set aside for the poor; the first fruits of every season are to be brought as offerings during harvest festivals; animals are brought as sacrifices in the Temple period; and ten percent of one’s earnings is to be set aside for charity. In this case, Jews are instructed to set aside a portion of the first loaf of every batch of bread they bake for the High Priest.

    Today, when there’s no longer a Holy Temple at the center of Jewish ritual life, and Priests don’t serve the same function, the commandment shifts: A piece of dough is taken from the first batch and thrown into the back of the oven to burn, symbolizing the destruction of the Temple and the exile that exists because of that destruction. There are many customs to reflect the loss of the Temple, such as replacing sacrifices with prayer services, using salt on bread to symbolize the bitterness of living in an imperfect world, and leaving a small part of a newly built home unfinished to commemorate the physical destruction of the Temple structure.

    But “Taking Challah,” as the custom is called, is more than merely preserving an ancient and now practically irrelevant commandment. By physically removing a small piece of dough and making it inedible, eventually discarding it altogether, we remind ourselves that everything we own is temporary. You may think that all of the dough is yours—after all, you paid for the ingredients, mixed them together, and watched them rise— but really, nothing belongs to you alone. You’re given the wheat and the eggs and the water from a higher source, and by letting some of it go, you’re acknowledging that source.

    The root of Challah actually has nothing to do with bread (which is called, in Hebrew, lechem). Instead, the root is chol, which means “ordinary.” The days of the week are separated into Shabbatand chol, Sabbath and weekday. Challah, a food made holy despite its ordinary origins, is made especially to be eaten on the Sabbath. Something as plain as wheat is elevated to a level at which it can be blessed and sanctified as an integral part of the Sabbath meal.

    The concept of Challah extends into our daily lives: We all need to learn the kabalistic lesson of sharing in order to balance the energy of the universe. What we own is never entirely ours, and we could never truly need every single object in our possession. It’s crucial to make giving a part of our consciousness, whether it is to acknowledge the higher force that guards us all, to remember the harsher realities of life, or to give thanks for what we already have.

    The Chet card comes to teach us how we can let go of what we do not need. We can survive on bread and water alone, yet we rely on incredible luxuries as if they were necessary.

    It’s time to let go. Donate clothes you no longer wear to a homeless shelter; take food supplies to a soup kitchen; make a list of your dependencies, and then set the list aflame. You will feel an increased freedom as a result.

15
samech

ynyo rh
Har Sinai
(Mount Sinai)

    On the third day when it was morning, there was thunder and lightning and a heavy cloud on the mountain, and the sound of the shofar [ram’s horn] was very powerful, and the entire people that were in the camp shuddered. Moses brought the people forth from the camp toward God, and they stood at the bottom of a mountain. All of Mount Sinai was smoking because God had descended upon it in the fire; its smoke ascended like the smoke of a furnace, and the entire mountain shuddered exceedingly. The sound of the shofar grew continually much stronger; Moses would speak, and God would respond to him with a voice.

Exodus 19:16–19

    Imagine being there at Sinai: Hundreds of thousands of people, slaves until just a few months before, are gathered together at the foot of a mountain in the desert—and smoke, fire, thunder, lightning, and the sound of the shofarblasting all lead up to the overwhelmingly awesome sound of the voice of God. How do you think this experience would make you feel?

    Legend has it that only the first two of the Ten Commandments were given directly by God, and the last eight had to come through Moses. The people were too overwhelmed by their first direct access to God to handle the situation—so, since they were familiar with his voice and it intimidated them less, they begged Moses to speak instead. (Although, as Bible scholars point out, every individual heard God’s voice differently, according to his or her own capacity and individual understanding, the direct experience of communication with the Divine proved to be more than they could handle.)

    There’s a tradition in Judaism that every single person in the world was at Sinai, and that those same souls have been reincarnated over and over again throughout the generations, even until today. That’s why this scene of the first mass Revelation in history is so compelling to us even now. There’s something in our souls that connects us to this event, remembers the fear that accompanied the excitement, and recognizes that in our most original state of being, we experienced it firsthand.

    The Samech is shaped like a circle, and it represents protection and safety. Although on some level they’re terrified, the people at Mt. Sinai also sense (though perhaps only subconsciously), that they’re going to be fine. When Moses hears their cries and takes over the enunciation of God’s words, the people are able to shield themselves from the frightening and foreign experience and take comfort in the familiar voice of their leader.

    Only once the sound shifts from the mighty, ethereal voice of God to the human one of Moses are the people truly able to comprehend the deeper meaning of the Revelation. Like a perfectly round wedding ring, the experience of Sinai is binding and limitless at the same time, extending to every generation through endless reincarnations. Although the people now have concrete rules and regulations, and have accepted upon themselves the responsibility to live accordingly—which might seem like a burden—they’ve also been guaranteed the ultimate protection and guidance of their God. As if they’re inside a metaphoric Samech, the people are now safely bound within the guidelines of their society, comforted by the permanence of it all.

    The Samech is your key symbol of safety and protection. Whether you’re in a place of transition or going about your daily routines without interruption, you may now and then feel like a lost lamb, unsure of your place in the world.

    Even when good things happen, we tend to question them and their place in the “bigger picture” of our lives. But the Samech reminds us that we’re always enclosed within the protective embrace of a higher force.

    Conjure up the experience of Sinai: Hear the foreign voice from above changing your reality day by day. You can conquer your fears and anxieties and quell your pride by focusing on the energy of the Samech.

    Remember that everything is part of the universal circle of life. The experience you have today leads to the one you’ll have tomorrow and so forth throughout lifetimes, and everything is just as it should be.

10
yod

PMvy
Yosef
(Joseph)

    Then Joseph said to his brothers, “Come close to me, if you please,” and they came close. And he said, “I am Joseph your brother—it is me, whom you sold into Egypt. And now, be not distressed, nor reproach yourselves for having sold me here, for it was to be a provider that God sent me ahead of you. For this has been two of the hunger years in the midst of the land, and there are yet five years in which there shall be neither plowing nor harvest. Thus God has sent me ahead of you to ensure your survival in the land and to sustain you for a momentous deliverance.”

Genesis 45: 4–8

    The story of Joseph is one of the most dramatic in all of history. Born to Jacob as the first child of his beloved wife, Rachel, Joseph is one of the 12 sons who will comprise the 12 tribes of Israel. But Joseph is unlike his brothers who are the sons of Leah and two maidservants— he’s clearly the favorite and the spiritual inheritor of the family. He and his younger brother, Benjamin, who was born to Rachel just before her death, have always been treated differently than the other ten boys.

    When, as a teenager, Joseph begins to have dreams of superiority—dreams in which he foresees that his brothers will one day bow down to him—his siblings decide that they’ve had enough of this “dreamer.” They throw him into a dark pit and sell him into slavery. Afterward, they take his special multicolored tunic and soak it in blood as “proof” that he’s been killed. They then return to Jacob and report their brother’s “death.”

    However, rather than fading into obscurity and a life of slavery, once in Egypt Joseph is able to use his talents to rise to the top, interpreting dreams and gaining a reputation that will lead him to the Pharoah’s palace to interpret the ruler’s inexplicable visions. When Joseph is able to see the hidden message in the Pharaoh’s dreams of seven skinny cows eating seven fat ones as the sign of seven years of plenty followed by seven years of famine, he’s promoted to be the Pharaoh’s second in command and makes his way into the Egyptian leadership at a crucial time in history.

    When the famine begins, Jacob sends his remaining sons to Egypt to gather provisions—and they come into contact with the brother they’d betrayed so many years ago. Not recognizing Joseph as an adult, his brothers bow down to the man they see as an Egyptian leader.

    After many months of testing the men and sending them back and forth from Egypt to Canaan, Joseph finally reveals himself as their long-lost brother and sends for his father. After all this time, his original dream has finally come true: He’s established himself in such a position of power that his brothers bow down to him, and they fear his revenge. But rather than express his anger and pain, Joseph tells them that he’s come to realize that everything leading up to this point— their jealousy and their plot against him, his time served as a slave, and so forth—was all meant to be, because as a result, he was able to provide food for the family in a time of overwhelming famine.

    Most of us cannot imagine being as “big” as Joseph was under the circumstances. Our anger over past wrongs becomes the dominant force in our actions. But Joseph, perhaps because of the amount of time that had passed, or because of his innate sense of the predestined nature of the world, looks at his reunion differently: He does want to make sure his brothers are sorry for their actions, but once he senses their remorse he seems to let go of his own anger and need for revenge. In this way, Joseph is able to focus on the present instead of the past, willing to move forward with his now reunited family.

    Joseph’s whole life has been one of dreams and their fulfillment. Having been born a dreamer, he’s known all along that the images he saw in his mind weren’t just figments of his imagination but signs of things that would actually come about in real life. As a young man, this awareness was looked at as snobbery, but as a mature adult, sobered by his difficult experiences, his gift was appreciated and led to the ultimate reunion of his family.

    The Yud, as the smallest letter in the alphabet, is often thought about as a “point.” This tiny point lies at the center of our hearts—it’s the driving force that takes us from one stage of life to another, the motivation that follows us through every action we perform. Joseph suffered for his essential point (his talent), but with time it became clear to everyone that he was not just a dreamer but a prophet, and that all of his dreams would one day become reality.

    The Yud appears in moments of spiritual or physical darkness. Like Joseph, you’ve been cast into a metaphorical pit and must redefine your life. You may feel misunderstood, underappreciated, or simply confused—the only way out of this darkness is by recognizing the small point in your soul that leads you forward in life.

    Joseph teaches the power of believing in yourself. You must always know that your life is full of purpose, and that everything that happens to you occurs for a reason. The key to personal fulfillment lies in recognizing your uniqueness and then learning how to apply your special talents in order to change your world and come to an enlightened understanding of your past, present, and future.

    Meditate on the power of forgiveness. Strive to be more like Joseph, who, as a result of forgiving his brothers for their actions, pulls his family together again.